Sunday, February 28, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
sometimes, i really hope that there's someone who trust me and someone whom i can trust.
it's hard to find, isn't it?
i'm really getting bored of blogging....no topic!! oh well, view my fb to know wad i'm doing nowadays.
im going to plan for some things....
1. Dance lesson ending tml. instructor going korea. so maybe break till May. looking for another korean dance class to substitute. so that i'll still exercise and keep up with dancing.
2. Korean language classes as an alternative if i can't find another korean dance class.
3. Go KTV after exams with cache girls
4. Shopping with ah xuan bestie~ (I do remember!)
5. Work Out with dearie every twice a week.
6. Picnic with my 1R04 hotties~
7. Look for new and interesting job with satisfying shifts and pay~
8. FREAKING HELL PASS MY YEAR 1 WITH 'WADEVER FLYING COLORS THAT IS AVAILABLE'! (in other words, pass with flying colors) =.=
alrite off to bed~
ps: I'VE NOT STARTED STUDYING AT ALL! AND I GROW FATTER DUE TO CNY~ SCREW!
what we could have been, 2:21 AM.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Yan Peng is needs to sleep!!!!!
guess wad i did today~~
i was sleeping in macro classroom for half an hour after my macro tut ended and after that i wanted to go to the toilet. i FREAKING HELL went into a male toilet! somemore got one guy inside!!!! but he was washing his hand. den i was still calm (actually sleepy) and i walked out of the toilet...my friends were stopping me. i only realised when i saw the guy inside and hear my friends calling my name....now that im awake, den i feel embarrassing!!! this thing happened to two of my friends several days ago....
i swear the toilet main door was open that's why i didnt realise it is a male toilet! BUS 4th storey really confusing!!! some female toilet on the left, some on the right.....
shitty~ but it was funny la~~~and didnt expect myself to be so calm...
ok im off to dance class! bye!
guess wad i did today~~
i was sleeping in macro classroom for half an hour after my macro tut ended and after that i wanted to go to the toilet. i FREAKING HELL went into a male toilet! somemore got one guy inside!!!! but he was washing his hand. den i was still calm (actually sleepy) and i walked out of the toilet...my friends were stopping me. i only realised when i saw the guy inside and hear my friends calling my name....now that im awake, den i feel embarrassing!!! this thing happened to two of my friends several days ago....
i swear the toilet main door was open that's why i didnt realise it is a male toilet! BUS 4th storey really confusing!!! some female toilet on the left, some on the right.....
shitty~ but it was funny la~~~and didnt expect myself to be so calm...
ok im off to dance class! bye!
what we could have been, 3:59 PM.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
self reflection post...
back~
sometimes, i really feel lost of which direction i shld go in life. as i get older, i tend to be indecisive of wad to do, thus making me following others all the time. i can spend a long time choosing the things i wan to buy, the food that i want to eat, the place i want to go. but no one really understands where i want to stand...some ppl in my life really helps me a lot because they gives me a feeling that they don't feel burden with me following them.....and im really grateful...
i actually thought i will have ppl who will understand me and not say things that will bring me down....but as time pass, i jus have this feeling that ppl who are close to me tends to stress me and will give me a feeling that i shouldn't live my life this way and wants me to change my life. but they don't realise that by doing so, i will feel stressed...or maybe, that's the intention.
no pin pointing, but that's how i feel now...
there's some things i want to say out....but i know i shouldn't because i don't trust the world. i've dropped my ambition (some of my close friends shld know) and that, i have little direction in life now...while i was trying to work on my ambition in the past...i couldnt feel the 'push'...and because of health, i totally gave it up. now i just want to continue with my current studies and job, most imptly, minimise the troubles that i will have. and i hope my friends will also lead a life that they want. seriously.
Also, i may be slightly straightforward at times which i may offend some ppl....and i feel like slapping myself when i say something wrong, especially in front of some friends....i don't want them to feel that there's a gap between us....so sorry if u felt this way....im not sure whether anyone is affected or not....
for now, i jus want to.....
- study
- work
- dance
- sing
- admire someone who is not 'real' (i meant idols....)
and relationships shall come naturally....wads most impt.....love yourself and everyone.....
back~
sometimes, i really feel lost of which direction i shld go in life. as i get older, i tend to be indecisive of wad to do, thus making me following others all the time. i can spend a long time choosing the things i wan to buy, the food that i want to eat, the place i want to go. but no one really understands where i want to stand...some ppl in my life really helps me a lot because they gives me a feeling that they don't feel burden with me following them.....and im really grateful...
i actually thought i will have ppl who will understand me and not say things that will bring me down....but as time pass, i jus have this feeling that ppl who are close to me tends to stress me and will give me a feeling that i shouldn't live my life this way and wants me to change my life. but they don't realise that by doing so, i will feel stressed...or maybe, that's the intention.
no pin pointing, but that's how i feel now...
there's some things i want to say out....but i know i shouldn't because i don't trust the world. i've dropped my ambition (some of my close friends shld know) and that, i have little direction in life now...while i was trying to work on my ambition in the past...i couldnt feel the 'push'...and because of health, i totally gave it up. now i just want to continue with my current studies and job, most imptly, minimise the troubles that i will have. and i hope my friends will also lead a life that they want. seriously.
Also, i may be slightly straightforward at times which i may offend some ppl....and i feel like slapping myself when i say something wrong, especially in front of some friends....i don't want them to feel that there's a gap between us....so sorry if u felt this way....im not sure whether anyone is affected or not....
for now, i jus want to.....
- study
- work
- dance
- sing
- admire someone who is not 'real' (i meant idols....)
and relationships shall come naturally....wads most impt.....love yourself and everyone.....
what we could have been, 10:06 PM.
